Nightly nursing gone

I am all about nursing for as long as possible, one year being my maximum. If I can give my son the best stuff and it's free, why not? But recently I wanted a little more freedom. I always have to do the bedtime routine, Charlie helps, but I always have to be the last one involved because I nurse him right before he goes into his crib. Yes, I could pump and have bottles for Charlie, but the freezer supply is almost non-existent and I would have to pump while Charlie is feeding him anyway. I would hurt way too much by the morning! I started to think about weening one of B's feedings and perhaps it should be the nighttime one because that's when I'd most likely have a sitter. And if I wasn't actively pumping, then I'd have to use formula. I'm normally so anti-formula (for myself), but I thought, what the heck! We had two free sample canisters in the pantry that never made it to the food-pantry, I figured I would try it out. Wow. I felt so guilty making up the bottle. I know that people all over use formula all of the time, but I just couldn't grasp it. I was secretly hoping B would hate it, but the other part of me was hoping that it would work. Of course B absolutely did not care about the change in his milk or the delivery. That boy just likes his food. Charlie has given it to him two nights in a row now at bedtime and it hasn't been a problem. The true test was me giving him a formula bottle at bedtime tonight. He had no problem taking it from me and he didn't want to nurse! WOW! I know that this nightly freedom will be wonderful only when I need to go out. I don't want to confuse my boobs and go back and forth between nursing and then not nursing. I still feel very conflicted about this whole decision. So many people love the night nursing, but my favorite is the first nursing of the morning. I've had time to miss my little guy and he's so cuddly and lovely. That's my favorite. That will be the one that is hard to give up, for me at least. I don't think I could go to all formula though. I'm too cheap. Why do I feel like I've betrayed myself?